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Feb. 22nd, 2006 @ 03:47 pm New name
Current Mood: nerdyObsessed
Current Music: Kingdom Hearts OST - Guardando nel buio
I'm afraid I'm getting bored of using this name, so it's going to become a backup account. Herazi is the new name I made today for the sole sake of doing so.

Although I doubt this matters to anyone since I rarely write in this anyway, and have very few friends on it that I talk to. Trust me, it's not intentional! I love all of you even if you don't always hear from me.

Although I may not say much here, I'm always thinking of my friends, since my heart could never let me forget anyone. T_T Love ya all, and remember the new name because I might be commenting with it on a day that I bother to get on anymore. :P

As far as obsessions go (and many of you who've spoken to me in the last few weeks or so know this well), I haven't been able to put down Kingdom Hearts. My MP3 playlist has about half the soundtrack on it and usually one song from it is played on repeat (depending on my mood) I've actually gone so far as to make an OC just because I couldn't find any canon characters that I could play that I knew of. ._. I also figured that since I'm going into game art and design is that I should work on an OC or two and KH just happened to be something I randomly made my guinea pig because of my love for it.

No need to be afraid, unlike most rp'ers and fanfic writers, I actually MAKE SURE that balance is kept in order to keep the sense. Hell, I might post his profile in my other account in case anyone is curious or wants to assault me with concrit.

In fact...I think I'll go do that now. >_>
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Dec. 20th, 2005 @ 08:04 pm -Insert Title Here-
Current Mood: blahHard to tell.
Current Music: FFVII OC Remix- Seven Degrees of Judgement
Meh, Winter break has started and that means a few things: I gotta watch my little cousins tomorrow while mom takes my grandfather to the doctorsm, I get presents (half of which I know anyway), I get to screw about on Gaia, and hope that at least someone there's on. Well, I could try to draw...But drawing usually makes me think of RP and I guess I don't want to think of it because it reminds me that no one's around to play with anymore. Maybe it's just me growing out of it, I dunno.

Tons of ideas float around in my brain yet I can't be arsed to find someone to express them with. S'not like they'd be interested anyway. On the plus side, these ideas have opened me up to a couple new fandoms. This is good because my FFVII ideas were getting stale without someone to discuss them with, or without a decent memory to type them up in. XD

To be honest, the main reason why I haven't put any of my drawings up is that I'm losing confidence in myself. I look back at all my old work and think that there's just too much that I haven't learned yet to consider myself really good. But that's just me being an artist. XD Artists never like their own stuff. Don't get me wrong though, I love the praise I get.

I wonder where everyone went...People on my lists are either away or idle. Ah well, that's what Gaia's for. Fun stuff there, just avoid the forums like the plague and don't talk to anyone. XD
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Nov. 1st, 2005 @ 03:51 pm ...
If people don't like something about me, why can't they just say it?
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Oct. 25th, 2005 @ 07:00 pm Iconic curiosity
Current Mood: determineddetermined
Current Music: Rosencrantz and Guildenstern - Seven Degrees of Judgement
Upon searching through LJ, I've decided on a few things

1) I WILL DRAW VINCENT AND/OR SEPHIROTH EVEN IF IT KILLS ME! And I know it will -clears throat.- I've wanted to tweak them in the same way I've done with Hojo (Hence Heresy) for a while now...maybe I'll do some concept sketches later. :D

2) I will learn how to make icons. If you know what programs and tools are used, please inform me. I've noticed that there are little Jenova icons out there (I might do om concepts of her as well, being part of my little post-storyline and all) so I'm probably going to use her as practice. It shouldn't be too hard, right...?

3) I WILL start drawing more characters. Despite the fact thar I loves the Hojo I play so very much, I've just drawn him way too much XD It's distracting me from learning OTHER characters as well. I have to expand my horizons sooner or later...
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Sep. 23rd, 2005 @ 03:26 pm A Discursive Little Entry
Current Mood: contemplativeThinky!
Current Music: ABG + Auvixia - Crystalline (FF Remix)
For those of you who are on my buddy list on AIM, MSN, or Yahoo: Even though I'm usually on the computer all the time, School unfortunately has started. Where I am, that means that I am technically away/idle from about 6:00 AM to around 3:00 PM. I've noticed that a few friends IM me between these times and then sign off a while later. To them: I am very sorry that you caught me at a time where I wasn't at the computer. I was at school at the time. Maybe an away message would help...or signing off before I go to school XD

School is...well I don't really know how to describe it. I'm doing more of my work than I used to do and I've become a lot better in my study habits now so I guess that's a good thing. I switched foreign languages from Spanish to German, and now I wish I had done it in 9th grade. It's SO much easier than Spanish! The people who speak in the listening activities are a lot slower than the people in the spanish ones so I can actually, Y'know, PICK OUT THE ANSWERS instead of staring blankly at the tape recorder and sluggishly scribbling a circle around an answer that sort of sounded like what I heard.

I've been on Gaia Online a lot recently, but it gets kinda lonely there since my friends that have accounts on there are never online anymore. That's kind of sad but I manage. The little avatars are fun to draw, but unfortunately the place is crawling with 'n00bs'-Twitch- Otherwise known as people who should be taught proper spelling and grammar before touching a keyboard.

Oh, another thing that I don't usually mention but probably should; Next Tuesday is the 27, and I become 18. In other words, "I'M LEGAL" next Tuesday. I'm not sure if I'll plan anything for my birthday, since it's on a schoolday as well as a day where I have to stay after school for Algebra tutoring. Such an evil little subject...I loathe it so. I'll bet nothing interesting will happen then. My birthday's never been anything different from a normal day, not since I was a little girl. I think the 'special' in the term 'special occasion' was taken out four years ago at age 13. Oh well, it'll feel nice to say "I'M LEGAL!" on Tuesday when joking with my friends in the morning. We don't have the same lunch together and that's also kind of depressing since this IS my last year of High School...

As far as what I'll do after school, I'm still not sure. I want to get a good education in art. I love to draw and I feel sometimes I would cease to exist if I couldn't draw anymore. If only I wasn't so lazy and really thought about things like this, but my online social life sort of eclipses everything esle, which is another sad fact about myself. The two things I would even remotely show interest in, major-wise is foreign language and of course art. I love learning about foreign cultures (this country bores me to tears sometimes) so of course I'd like to learn to communicate with others in perhaps their native tongues. Funny thing is, everyone in the world seems to be learning English.

Online life is pretty much my alternate life. Since most of my irl friends are in the marching band or governor school or something special like that, I have to rely on either my movies or my online friends to keep me sane...Well, the anime conventions help too (Otakon *_*). Maybe I'll bring a little notebook next time I go to one so that I can get some numbers and screen names, thus expanding my circle of friends.

RPs are pretty much my form of crack. I cannot get enough of them because each time I post something I feel I've improved a little more. This little hobby has been my own ever since I learned of this wonderful thing called AIM back in the 8th grade. I've been doing this for at least six years or so now so I have garnered quite a bit of confidence in my skills. Hey, even if I read stuff from some elitist moron or someone like that, I still don't get discouraged. Why? Because a vast majority of them possess one weakness that is my blessing: The ability to spell correctly. Being a 'spelling nazi' as I start to call it, has its disadvantages, especially when you're nitpicky like me. Like for example, I see certain words that are misspelled constantly and the frequency of this mistake hurts my brain to the point where I actually flinch when I see them. Tell me, do any of you feel like laughing your ass off whenever some god-moder starts going off on a tangent about how their little mary-sue/gary-stu is so powerful and wonderful and whatnot and then misspells an easy word like 'dying' "DIEING"? If not, I must be insane. ^_^

Well, that's my little rant for the month. Now it's off to read old RPs, draw, or perhaps watch some anime!

Auf Wiedersehen!
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Aug. 29th, 2005 @ 03:22 pm The end of my summer just went down the crapper.
Current Mood: nauseatedShitty
Current Music: Hamasaki Ayumi - Connected
Yep, my summer was actually fairly enjoyable until a couple weeks ago. I upset a friend and now I feel emotionally like shit, since I hate hurting anyone's feelings, especially when I don't realize that I've done it.

Now, as of a couple days ago, my stomach feels like shit. I've been having lower abdominal cramps and it's been wearing on my nerves. I'd love to be able to talk to someone, but no one's online that much anymore except late at night. Most of my school friends are off at 'band camp' so I can't talk to any of them. Maybe that's why I'm always so hung up on getting online; Since the real world tends to fuck me over with these stomach issues. I swear to god worrying about upsetting people and my stomach is going to be the death of me, and it's not making me a happy camper.

I wish I could sleep, but nausea and cramping won't let me forget the stupid mistake I made of learning to RP. That's how I fucked up. I learned how to fucking RP.

I feel sick
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Jul. 17th, 2005 @ 09:26 pm -shakes head-
As much as I love a game, I do fear for it's fandom.
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May. 11th, 2005 @ 03:14 pm Don't Try to Argue with me
Current Mood: pissed offto the EXTREME
Current Music: Carmina Burana O Fortuna
(This is in NO WAY meant to be funny, disregard my analogies.)
This country reeks of hypocrisy.

The people in this contry are seething piles of fecal ignorance

The rancid odor of blind patriotism could knock off the entire population of Texas.

Hard-headed parents who won't listen to reason have idiocy just PERMEATING off of them like the kind of cologne you wouldn't want someone to wear while you're trapped with them in an elevator.

One of my beloved best friends is now offically more of a hermit than I am due to a little mishap involving her brother. But it isn't a little mishap to her parents. It's this huge "OMGWE'RENOTAPERFECTCHRISTIANFAMILYSOWEMUSTTAKEALLTHATISOFFENSIVEANDHIDEITEVENIFITSONLYABUNCHOFJAPANESEDRAWINGS* issue to them.

Apparently, liking anime makes you a: weirdo, pedophile, pervert, violent psychopath, sadist, masochist, and abnormal. Why is this? WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH THIS GODDAMNED LANDFILL WE CALL A FREE COUNTRY!??!?! What is wrong with Manga? What is wrong with Anime? What is wrong with both of these genres in general? The answer is simple.


THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH ANIME OR MANGA IN AND OF ITSELF! WHAT APPARENTLY IS SO WRONG IS THAT PEOPLE, YES, MY MOST FAVORITE THING IN THE WORLD, PEOPLE ARE INTERPRETING IT AS 'Foreign garbage'. I have overheard some people's opinions of manga and anime, in fact! LEt me give you a clear cut example of what the majority's initial interpretations of manga and anime are:

Manga and Anime, boys and girls, are just like movies and books. There are good kinds, and there are bad kinds. There generes like comedy, action/adventure, drama, fantasy, sci-fi, and even some made for young children. They are just like anything we make here, difference being that comics here are a bit more gruesome and grown up; which yeild impossibly proportioned male meatmounds with gums made of worn rubber and painfully endowed sex-dolls that are supposed to be grown women with limbs that share the width and strength of a toothpick. Some things are alike in anime, such as common themes like cute magical girls saving the world with special wands or power-up forms,like a pink-haired, blue-eyed version of a Power Ranger, random slapstick comedy you wouldn't see coming from a mile away, and all that mushy gushy, kissy-kissy-goo-goo love rubbish in the same amounts as your typical daily soap operas. The difference here is that typical cartoons in America today feature impossibly (or horribly) proportioned characters based off of mindless everyday objects that revolve around wasting 30 minutes doing things that could get your little baby killed if they tried it at home. Although I'm sure anime has it's victims of those sorts too.

What I am trying to say here is that assuming that all japanese animation is XXX rated stuff, is just as silly as assuming that all germans are Nazis and all Russians are Communists. It's a terribly unimaginative way of thinking and it must be ceased. If you are one of these people who assume this, here's an assignment for you: Look up some famous japanese cartoons and then look up the same amount of american cartoons. I assure you that while the Japanese do tend to like their mature titles (just as we Americans do.) they are never forgetting the younger generations that indulge in animation as entertainment and not just something to get off on. There are just as many american porn movies as there are japanese, and if either of these happens to have more, then it's probably because the person or persons who came up with the concept has never taken a sex ed class in their life.


...I have seenthe worst of both sides of the Pacific, so I know what I'm talking about.
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May. 6th, 2005 @ 11:44 pm SATs of doom...A word from the Heretic.
Current Mood: anxiousand in need of Vincent torment
Current Music: FF7-String Machine (Corel Prison Mix)
Someone gets to take the SATs...They have been quite nervous wreck right now and it's 11:45 at night. She's going to end up like me one of these days.... The nerves won't make me sleep, so I've been reviewing bad fanfiction and brainstorming rp ideas for the next time I get to speak to me sweet, darling little Turk. I haven't spoken to him in two days and it is becoming extremely difficult to find good entertainment these days...Ah well. I could always pester the child...-smirks and slinks off.-
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Apr. 15th, 2005 @ 10:20 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: blahblah
Current Music: Black Mages - J-E-N-O-V-A
Guess who got bored?

Your Linguistic Profile:

45% Yankee

35% General American English

15% Dixie

5% Upper Midwestern

0% Midwestern

I would blame godawful.net, but the mary sue bashing is too much fun.
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